STRESS! Oh my... I had a much different blog post planned for today than this one. But... I think what I have to say many of you can relate to. It's been going on here a few days. The feeling of soreness, tightness in my chest. The uncomfortable pain going around to my upper back and at times deep into my heart muscle.
Thinking it would just go away... I'd lay with a heating pad and tried resting off and on between wrtiting Christmas cards, dealing with a stack of bills and continuing the daily rituals... insulin shots for my pooch and on and on. News on FaceBook of friends and family going through major difficulties... my mind just can't shut out all the problems... let alone those things going on in countries far far from here that I have absolutely NO control of how to fix THAT!
well... I started feeling pretty bad yesterday morning... I decided to give a triage nurse a call and talk over my symptoms... just to see if I should make an appointment with my Dr.... and well I guess I should say it didn't surprise me.. she was ready to call an ambulance right then and there!!!
I explained that I've been having these symptoms for a few days and didn't think I was in full panic heart attack mode... but she calmly explained that women are different... our symptoms can be way more subtle than men... not like you see on TV where they are grasping their chests and falling to the ground.
We then decided it was okay if Dave drove me to the hospital since we live only a mile or two away. And if he got me there in the next five minutes.
Dave, home from work in a few minutes... we were in the ER and I was admitted faster than you can say Merry Christmas!
EKG buttons attached, X-rays ordered, Blood tests, and then a CT scan followed.
To make this short and sweet.... I wasn't having a heart attack!
Whew... did I dodge a bullet? What was causing all this distress and pain!
They did find my esophagus had a little swelling...hence the feeling of fullness when I swallow. And of course my old thyroid problems. Which are chronic and I am under a Dr.s care sort of.
So I was released with orders to REST for a few days... follow up with my Doc after Christmas.
Well... today is my Birthday.
They saw on my records yesterday in the ER of course..
I told them I decided to make the call and come in and get checked as I didn't necessarily want to die on my Birthday!
Nurse laughs and said "my my, listen to miss negative here"!
Thinking of ways I can try and deSTRESS my life today... on my 63rd birthday.
I think it's time to quit all the nonsense of worrying about things I have absolutely NO control over and maybe UNPLUG from world news, FaceBook, phones and whatever..
Hard to do. I love my online friends and the family that seems to be the only way we know what's going on with each other.
But maybe a little less of it... a little less working round the clock( with a business in your home you don't get much of a break)
The Winter Solstice ( which is what I had originally planned to write this post on) is a time to turn inward... maybe make a few of those changes. Think of precious little things surrounding us that get overlooked in all the RUSH!
The word folks should be "HUSH"....... see the little birds flitting about in the snow and the rabbit who silently hopped across the backyard in the moonlight.
The great earth is turning on it's axis... ever so slowly in the vastness of space.
Our days are filled with magical happenings...
Far removed from the violence and the hatred...
I need and I suspect others reading these words need .. to take note.
So Celebrate the Season, Sing and Rejoice!
It' good for the heart!
We make the Choice!
Quiet Christmas Blessings Dearest Friends and Family!